Why you keep giving me awesome things and then taking them away!
And the worse yet–motherhood! Sacrifice everything. End up with nothing.
31years with only one possible ending.
WTF God! I hate you! I wish I never met you! You suck!
Knowing you. Loving you. Has been the biggest heartbreak of all.
Why such separation? Why do you mock me from the sky? Why aren’t I your only. Where is YOUR constancy? Why do you hide?
I am terrified to find myself tip toeing toward you again.
I have only just recovered from our breakup.
39.5 years ago.
On, and Fuck YOU!
(sorry about that.)
hope you’re well & all.
let’s have tea sometime.
(Written February 2017 in Writing Down the Light program with Joan Borysenko at Kripalu)